Tuesday, December 29, 2009

心情札记有感而发之六



yeah..finally..
a new year is coming soon..
everyone has their new hair style..new wishes..new target..new aiming and so on =)
there is no exception for me too ^^

with a new hair style..new aiming..new wishes..i am going to achieve all those in coming 2010..come on..everyone say welcome to 2010 and say goodbye to 2009 =.=

recently i keep on listening to two songs..
the first song name as 'would you be there' ..really a nice song with a meaningful liric XD ( this song is recommend by siew mei )
besides, the 2nd song which is 'replay' by Iyaz also not bad too..( recommend by my lover XD )
when all of you free can go and download it..or ask from me ^^ haha

aza aza fighting..
gambate..
we are nomber one !!
cindy can do it..+ u everyone
forget the pass and step forward..looking forward *.*
2010 will be a better year for me and ofcause all of you too..yea

Saturday, December 26, 2009

幸 ♥ 福



生命还没有预告之下匆匆告别人间,还来不及遗忘雪灾的伤痛,风灾就来了;还来不及知道彼岸暴风卷去了多少生命,就发生四川地震了;还来不及救出许多埋藏在塌楼之下的生命,A禽流感(H1N1)又在全球发怒了…

所以我说…
人生无常啊,生命随日消失,幸福不是必然的,但一旦拥有了幸福就必须尽全力去珍惜,保护它,不让它流失…

哪 ,何谓幸福?
‘幸福’这定义却不是每个人一样的!
随着每个人心境的改变,那会产生不一样的感觉…
可能今天感觉是幸福,但明天这感觉却会消失了…
对于我而言…
不管是爱人或是被爱都是幸福的;有力量去爱一个人或被爱的人都是幸福的人 !
有人关心,有人爱护,能关心别人,爱护别人者,也算是福中之人 !
能够每天睁开眼睛就可迎接美好的每一天也算是一件幸福的事 !
能全心全意去爱一个人,无论过程是热情拥抱或擦肩而过;结局是白头偕老或只能放手也是幸福之事 ![当然我希望是白头偕老啦]
因为…
比起那些在灾难中丧失性命的人,他们更本无法去实践以上我所谓‘幸福’之事/之人 …

总得来说:幸福,原来是有声音的。只是人们总要在清醒的时候,才能听得见 ,才能感受到幸福曾经悄悄的降临但如今已悄悄的溜走了…

在此我想大声宣布 …
拥有了保护我的家人,包容我的朋友,与及爱我的你算是我拥有了全世界最大气 !!!

I LOVE MY ONLY PARENTS & FAMILY, MY PRECIOUS FRIENDS AND LOVELY YOU EVERYDAY ^^

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

冬。至。快。乐

冬至,是我国农历中一个非常重要的节气,也是一个传统节日,至今仍有不少地方有过冬至节的习俗。冬至俗称“冬节”、“长至节”、“亚岁”等。早在二千五百多年前的春秋时代,我国已经用土圭观测太阳测定出冬至来了,它是二十四节气中最早制订出的一个。时间在每年的阳历12月22日或者23日之间。

冬至过节源于汉代,盛于唐宋,相沿至今。《清嘉录》甚至有“冬至大如年”之说。这表明古人对冬至十分重视。人们认为冬至是阴阳二气的自然转化,是上天赐予的福气,。汉朝以冬至为“冬节”,官府要举行祝贺仪式称为“贺冬”,例行放假。《后汉书》中有这样的记载:“冬至前后,君子安身静体,百官绝事,不听政,择吉辰而后省事。”所以这天朝庭上下要放假休息,军队待命,边塞闭关,商旅停业,亲朋各以美食相赠,相互拜访,欢乐地过一个“安身静体”的节日。


[ 这就是我和妈咪的作品 ^^ ]

卖汤圆,卖汤圆,我们家的汤圆是圆又圆,粒粒汤圆很纯正,一点色素也没有,汤圆汤圆卖汤圆,lalalalalalala...
搓汤圆的时候,因为想快点完成这任务,所以汤圆就越搓越不一样大小 >.< 没想到妈咪看穿了我的诡计..muahaha
在此声明噢,我们家的汤圆可真的没有放什么色素的唷!都是用菜或果汁的颜色的喔...

我将‘康乐’搓入汤圆,
将‘甜蜜’融入糖水,
将‘平安’藏入孔明灯与烛光,
最后再将‘真诚’的祝福,
托菩萨洒在每一位读者的家,
愿大家合家团圆,过个快乐的冬至 ^^

献给远方的你 :冬至快乐哟 *muackx*

Friday, December 18, 2009

想 。念



相思豆代表着什么?
有人说相思豆代表想念,当你想念一个人时就把一颗相思豆放进一个罐子,当那个罐子满了就表示你想念对方想念到‘不能顶’

而想念又是什么冬冬?
有人说想念是一件痛苦的事…
有人说想念是有幸福的滋味…
有人说想念是爱降临的前兆…

对于我而言,
想念就像秋天的落叶,它很美丽,就在你想念一个人时,会不经意的扬起嘴角后,甜蜜一笑…
想念就像雾那么多变,表示猜测,因为当你想念对方时,你也想知道对方是否也一样想着你…
想念就像柠檬酸涩味,表示嫉妒,就在对方无法陪伴你,哪怕只是一句问候或是一句想念你…
想念就像寂静的城市,它很孤单,因为就当你想念对方,对方一上线聊不到五分钟就下线了…

越远越想念…面对你的时候,我会舍不得…但我相信…
不论距离有多远,只要在同一片天空下,看着同一群星星,彼此的心将会连在一起…
只要相信就是爱情,在平凡的相遇也可以变得回肠荡气..

Thursday, December 17, 2009

心情札记有感而发之五

面对着即将结束的2009,突然有感而发

2009年对我来说可是一个真不可思议的一年哟
歪 歪 歪?

它让我尝尽了生活中的甜酸苦辣…

它让我尝试了从原本的拥有—然后失去--- 然后再次拥有的滋味…

它让我曾经不自主的掉下泪,曾经开怀地大笑,曾经天真认为自己是多么的让人万万不能没有的,曾经蠢得自找苦吃,曾经不成熟地与父母起争执,曾经的曾经…

它让我为了课业又繁又烦,为了一些小事而懊恼,为了满足心中小小的希望而伤害了身边最亲的人,为了‘恶塞闷’而开夜车直已成了习惯…

它让我学会什么叫担心,什么叫嫉妒,什么叫甜蜜,什么叫心痛,什么叫痛苦,什么叫彻底失望,什么叫错过,什么叫舍不得…

它让我知道家是我的安全窝,避风港,永远永远为我而开 ;知道朋友对我的重要性,信赖性,尊重性 ;知道对另一半必须相互了解,相互信任,相互扶持,互相包容,牵手了就不要随便放手这道理等…

它让我知道我是多么的在乎家人的健康,安危,多么的希望一家人出入平安,开开心心的度过每一天…

它让我打从心底了解真正在乎我的人,关心我的人始终会陪着我不管之前我有否伤害过他们…

它让我更加珍惜得来不易的亲情,友情与爱情…

它让我的心情就像随着坐过山车一样起起落落,跌跌撞撞地度过这一年…

还有很高兴遇回8年没见的小学同学,女大男大18变…
女的美,男的帅 =D
可说是俊男美女齐集在毕业于公明一校2001年的6K&6M班唷!

我有话说…
在这一年里如有我不小心伤害过的你们,对不起
在这一年里如有我无意间得罪过的你们,对不起
在这一年里如有我不经意让你们有误解,对不起
在这一年里如有我的举止让你有所误会,对不起
在这一年里如有我的一些言语语气重了,对不起
在这一年里谢谢你们的支持,关怀,谅解,包容,呵护,称赞,批评等等

[ *谢谢你让我再次拥有 =p * ]

Friday, December 4, 2009

continue trip to melacca ...

Day 2 :

Wei Zheng {our 'kicap'} early in the morning bring us to have breakfast at small house there which the melaka laksa = penang curry mee ; melaka mee siam = penang cha bi hun
haha..the food is abit pedas and some too sweet =.=

after having our breakfast we went to Stadthuys Museum Complex which was bult between 1641 and 1656 is the oldest still existing VOC building in Asia.


beside that got a Christ Chursh where built in 1753 by the Dutch, the oldest Protestant church in M'sia took 12 ys to built. the 8 foot long ceiling beams were cut in one piece and constructed without joints.


also, we went to the Porta De Santiago which built by the Portuguese admiral, Alfonso d'Albuquerque during the Portuguese invasion in 1511.


next, go into the Ruins of St.Paul's Church which was built on a hill in 1521 by Duarte Coelho, a Catholic Portuguese captain.


we went to the Melaka Sultanate Watermill too.
it was built in the late 2007 and completed by March 2008. It has been recorded as the 1st and the largest watermill ever in M'sia.


thn our dersert at Jonker Walk - 文化街
Jonker Walk is well known for its art galleries, antique shops, among them goldsmiths, watch repaires, clog makers and beaded shoemakers, food outlets and many more.

there popular with cendol. a scrumptious desert of green been noodles flavoured with pandan juice and served with shaved ice, thich palm sugar syrup and santan. it's one of Melaka's best loved deserts, what more on a hot aftnoon day =p

lunch at vegetarian shop coz originaly we plan for the Chicken Rice Ball where the rice cooked with chicken stock and shapped into balls is a unique Melakan specialty. It is accompanied by roasted or steamed chicken, soup and a mixture of chill and ginger paste. becoz the are lot ppl Q up to eat that so we give up and go for a vegetarian shop settle our lunch ^^

our dinner at a shop where near by my bro's house bt thn forget to take picture =.=
the dishes very delicious. yummy ^^

at nitez we went to the Menara Taming Sari.
from a heigh of 80 meters and a view of 5km, the visitor can witness a host of interesting and historical sights of Melacca straits. the ride duration is 7 minutes and the passenger capacity at one time is 80 passengers. the height is 110 meter. rm10 per person.


aft dat we went to eat Satay Celup.
Satay Celup or satay steamboat only found in Melaka, are assortment of raw and semi-cooked seafood, meat and vegetables on skewers that are dunked into a boiling pot of water and eaten with sauce that is similiar to the ubiquitious satay sauce but has diff indegredients.




Day 3 :
nothing special coz going to back to lovely hometown - penang. so no mood of taking any picturer. sorry >.<


* In short..Melacca really a nice places for us to visit where we can know the history, culture, recreation, shopping, makan-makan there which are so diff. thakz to daddy, mummy, koko and his 2 fren *

trip to melacca [ 27/11/09-29/11/09 ]

Day 1 :
we start the journey at 6am early in the morning. daddy be the driver at first thn aft dat my bro's turn thn my turn to drive and at last is get bck bro's turn to his house which had rent outside. we use about 8 hours like that to reach our destination. ofcoz we have a rest half way to settle our breakfast [ coz i sleep in the car so no foto here XD ]

aft we had reach thn we take a bath thn go dataran pahlawan have a look.


at nitez we have our dinner which recomened by my bro -- 粥底火锅 RM 60+


aft dat we bck to home. daddy & mummy choose to have a rest while my bro's friend - Wei Zheng & Ah Bong bring me n bro go to kia kia =)

we go 3 places which is Dataran Sungai Melaka, 音乐喷泉 & Fun Fair



[ where i 1st time sit the 海盗船 almost vomit..argh !! no more nextime ]

4 dec 2009 ^^




The guy :

Dance
Love the music

Relationship
Love the person

How about the combination?
Dance with my life?

Will you?


The girl :

Yes, i do

Thursday, November 26, 2009

小女孩的故事

想和大家分享一则我在网上看过的一篇故事…

那一年的爱情,错过了请不要再等待
小女孩终于和小男孩分开了

有个小女孩,2007年离开自己的家乡去读书以便实现她从小的梦想
因为距离的问题,再加上小女孩是个无理取闹又过分敏感的女孩
使到她的初恋情人无法忍受她的脾气和敏感,就在2007年年尾和小女孩结束了将近2年的恋情
庆幸的是小女孩的身边总有一些的追求者,所以失恋后的小女孩很快的好起来站起来
其实有一个聪明,很疼小女孩又对她很好的小男孩一直陪着小女孩
小男孩与小女孩读同一间学校,小男孩就像是天使般不管小女孩的身边有没有护花使者,从小女孩一踏进学院就开始默默守护在她身边
小女孩要东小男孩就不会给西,即使是小女孩做错了事小男孩会主动道歉
小男孩从来不会拒绝小女孩的无理要求,甚至默默接受小女孩的指责
因为小女孩用digi所以小男孩也从maxis换成了digi
小女孩一有不舒服,小男孩就很紧张地
小男孩常会给小女孩一些惊喜,当然小女孩也有礼尚往来
小男孩就这样陪在小女孩的身边过了一段时间
只是…小女孩从来没有认真看待这个小男孩因为他的外貌一点也不出色
2008年的某月某日,小女孩在网上认识了大她一岁的大男孩
他们经常在msn , skype , friendster 交流,这是小女孩第一次给网友电话号码及开webcam等
不懂为什么在巴刹一次的相遇,小女孩就被大男孩的酒窝深深的吸引住了
对小女孩来说,大男孩很帅,很smart
就这样彼此很快地互相有了好感…
也因为这样小女孩在2009年的年初作了一个决定 – 选择大男孩放弃小男孩
小女孩期待与大男孩手牵手直到那个叫做‘永远’的幸福车站
小女孩因为第一次的恋情失败,她很想与大男孩直到天长地荒所以小女孩在这次的恋情中改变了许多
恋情的开始他们的确很甜蜜,但久而久之小女孩发现自己改变不了爱吃醋的坏习惯+其它的问题也开始慢慢发生了
小女孩的占有欲很强而大男孩的异性缘又特别好,加上他们很少见面,所以他们经常吵架
终于2009年的某月,大男孩提出了分手 – 小女孩哭着驾车回家
小女孩非常喜欢大男孩,不懂为什么当初许多人告诉小女孩别和大男孩在一起,小女孩硬要让大家证明网海中认识的恋情也是可以长久的!
这次的小女孩非常心痛因为她没想到这场来得快的恋情也去得快,她更没想到这一路付出的心血得回的是‘分手’这两个字
其实…
大男孩永远都不会知道…
小女孩喜欢直发的,卷发并不适合她
小女孩和大男孩出去时,她会脸红心跳加数
小女孩多次想去找大男孩失败原因不是在于她说话不算数,而是小女孩的室友
小女孩为了大男孩和室友们吵了2次架
大男孩难过,小女孩也会不开心
等等...等等…
好了,故事接回去小男孩那里…
此时的小男孩已是一个在外国留学的留学生了
小男孩和小女孩只能通过hotmail保持联络
当小男孩知道大男孩和小女孩的恋情告吹后小女孩很伤心,所以小男孩也常安慰小女孩
不知是不是因为这样,小男孩向小女孩说了一些话
小男孩说其实在小男孩的心中一直都有保留着一个位让小女孩住进去,小男孩打算等他读完书后来找小女孩
看完后小女孩的眼泪直飙出来,小女孩确实很感动
现在的小女孩身边又出现了一个好男孩,只是小女孩对爱情这东西已没有兴趣了
好男孩几乎每天都会与小女孩通电话,写讯息等
那当然小女孩也有和小男孩msn联络,小女孩发现小男孩对小女孩的呵护有一点折扣了
那是为什么呢?
至于好男孩,小女孩希望好男孩多看一些外面的花花草草然后作出比较,看看自己适合哪朵花!给大家各自一些自由,不要绑住自己在酱小的圈子里…
大男孩呢?小女孩还是很关心他的一切一切,只是这份爱已不再是像当初那样热诚了!
面对着眼前的草草木木…haiz
小女孩害怕做错了决定受到伤害,所以唯有选择单身
对于现在的小女孩来说,虽然看见身边的朋友个个甜蜜蜜,幸福的样子挂满脸上
但与其放心思在于感情上,不如享受被追的过程和专心完成学业
对不对?

Friday, November 20, 2009

missing ..

damn miss my fren so much ^^
finally finish our exam and sem2 ler..
time really pass so fast lk water..
everyone hav their own plan during holiday included me =)
bt thn my tears automatically drop out when say 'bye' to them..
really miss those day we having fun together..
having pizza hut + kfc during exam..
thx for giv me a hug b4 i went bck home..so warm n sweet the feeling >.<

i am sure i will miss all of u during dis holiday..
maybe for uu..nt a vry long holiday bt for me..it was..
miss..really miss..duno hw much i cry coz thking of u all..frenz

all my classmate and those who having holiday too..
will meet up again in year 2010 ^^
wish all of you have a wondeful holiday n enjoy urself..
4gt all unhappy unlucky memory in year 2009

cindy really happy to have all of you as my classmate and aso housemate..
i am waiting a better 2010 =)

when i fall sick..

before exam..i fall sick..
very sufer..cant eat cant sleep n cant even driving >.<>
  • pei - my roomate
  • thx for cook me a cup of nestle..100 plus v salt..even borrow me tissue paper =p

    • mei - my housemate

    thx for help me to wash the plate n kuali dat i used..

    • chai - my housemate

    thx for the 罗汉果..nice drink u had cooked

    • rui - my housemate

    thx for ur tuala kecil =) thx for concern aso

    • ah liu - my housemate

    thx for packing food for me although i din eat at last..

    • ah hea - my housemate

    thx for ur honey..

    • chong yong - a fren meet up during camp

    thx for ur concern n ur almost everyday's call..

    • chieh loon - not a very close fren =p

    thx for teach me wat fruit add on wat..4gt ler coz i din eat that..blukx..

    • others - who sms and msn chat

    thx for urs concern..cindy really get touch =)

    ~ sorry becoz of my virus make till some of u getting sick too aft me..aikz..but..luckily we all rcv b4 exam..yeah..thx to god..i am glad to having such a group of best fren there ^^


    Friday, October 23, 2009

    心情札记有感而发之四

     


    幸福车站真的需要两个人才能到达..
    幸福是在自己手里,自己去把握的..
    如没把握好对的人,幸福就会流失..
    能否重来,要靠自己的努力与诚意..

    想和大家分享一句我很喜欢的话:
    Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear...
    其实,真的没有合适不合适,只有珍惜不珍惜,能一起在走一起在让步是幸福的!

    祝天下有情人终成眷属,珍惜身边所有的一切噢!!

    Tuesday, October 6, 2009

    放下,然后走过..

    lov really a vry complicated thing..


    recently, a good fren called me talking n she is curently study at UMS..
    aso having a lov problem..
    n her case almost same v me..
    a guy she loved n loved her too..bt that guy suddenly change target to a chinese grl..
    my good fren feel so hurt n suffer..
    coz she did n pay out lot too in dis..
    she change lot when v him..
    he too care vry caring bt jz suddenly change target..
    dat's y she feel nt fair to her..


    wat i can do is jz stand by her side support her n tell her 放下,然后走过..
    really..need time to let go everythg..
    i noe wat i said she cant even listen or agree v me..
    her feeling i understand the most !!
    really aft some time..u will feel that he not the guy who worth for you to pay out lot coz he din appreciated at all..
    not suit de person let go early was a good thg..
    coz of his leaving u will find a better..
    is a truth !! cindy strongly believe it was a truth !!! =p


    grl..
    pls find a guy that will appreciate wat u did n really care abt u..
    together v u nt jz wan those sweet thg..
    coz the sweet thg jz a momment thn will lose ler..
    so..pls..dun rush for love..

    something will appear when we r nt expected !! lk this will be better..am i rite??

    Saturday, October 3, 2009

    在乎你的人,始终陪着你



    such a long time din update my blogs already..
    finally had pass up all assignment so only gt free time to update my blogs here..
    sleep 2 time for today >.<


    the person who always care abt u will care abt u all the time without telling u..
    在乎你的人,始终陪着你..i am a luckily grl in this world..
    i really feel that my luck is so good..
    gt parents beside me support me all the time, such group of nice fren around me, some of caring me de people jz i din realize it..thx ^^


    my single life till now make me getting biasa with it ler..single not a shame thg =)
    i really did enjoy my single life although smtime my bf will accompany me..kekex
    [ my bf = Mr Lonely ]
    i thk now most of the time my bf had leave me alone ler..happy ^^


    when i rcv ur reply..abit surprise coz u wrote 'i always reserve a place for u in my heart'..'i plan to...when..'
    i always charge a book by it cover..
    i wish to get more when i had smthg..
    i tot the thg that i had miss up will never gt chance to look bck n even walk to the pass ler..
    bt..really when i saw dis my tears also cum out..


    now only i know n i realize what kind of thg i want n wat kind of guy suit me..
    so i decided concentrate my studies at 1st..
    i belive that if u are mine thn u will be mine at last no matter how long and hw far we seperate..if u really belongs to me thn will belongs to me at last also..
    anyway, luckily still can keep contact with u through mail..feel so happy ^^
    when sad or anythg i will jz write mail send it to u although i noe i will jz get ur reply aft 2 days or wat coz u were busy with ur works there !!


    * appreciate what we having now !! *

    Sunday, September 20, 2009

    无题

    原来他爱上了另一个她,我想是时候让我忘了他..

    how to say about dis?
    starting i though everythg still can solve..
    and now i am sure cant anymore..


    anyway..
    i promise myself..today last day for me..
    to view his profile..
    to thk of him..
    to concern about him..


    i decided to let all go..
    let him as a memory..


    study..
    study is more important..
    love is juz a thg that make our life wonderful abit..
    without it..i still can make my life wonderful..


    are you going to stay with the one you love or going bck to the one who love you..
    my ans is..
    THE ONE WHO LOVE ME ...


    stop here la..
    my blogs will not appear 'him' anymore..

    Monday, September 14, 2009

    h@Ppy b'd@Y Papa !!

    happy birthday to u..
    happy birthday to u..
    happy birthday to papa..
    happy birthday happy birthday..


    papa..
    sry for cant celebrate with u at pg..
    but ur daughter really wan to thx you..
    thx for always by her side selama 20 years..
    she duno hw to thk..always make ppl worry..
    bt dun worry..
    she wun do so ler..
    she will be a daughter that will make u proud of her one day !!


    papa..
    u really best papa for me..
    although u so strick..so garang
    smtime i will scare of u..
    but wanna say hor..
    u really best la..kekex


    happy birthday again..
    best reward : best papa in dis world - cindy's papa
    haha..
    love you..muackx

    finally ...

    smone send a mail to me..
    the mail let me wake up at last..


    如果你爱的人放弃了你,
    请放开自己,
    好让自己有机会爱别人....
    有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
    有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的....

    爱一个人不一定要拥有,
    但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她....



    lulala..

    GO GO CINDY...
    CINDY GO GO...
    STAND UP AND TRY TO FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT...


    4 more days..penang i am coming..
    papa mama i am cuming oo..
    i need home ^^

    argh!!!

    i already try not to open facebook ler..
    bt how cum my mind still full with him?
    i miss his smile..his voice..his sms n everythg..
    what should i do when missing him?
    tell him or self control?
    help me please !!


    everyday waiting the familiar no appear on my phone..
    jz like ytday before i sleep, i rcv his msg but thn is early he sms me de jz i din notice it..
    surprise..
    however the msg no appear 'dear' dis words anymore..
    sadness over cum me..
    i know everythg gone already..
    3 days ler..
    if he want to be with me he sure will say out but thn NO..
    T.T ~


    am i a stupid grl??
    i should not put 100% in love..
    what else can do??
    i am jz like a stupid grl missing him but cant do anythg..
    suffer alots..


    huhu ~

    Sunday, September 13, 2009

    以为...

    以为时间可以冲淡一切,但毕竟心不是机械化,不能像电脑般果断,按了扭就能冲洗一切...
    以为距离可以拉开思念,但毕竟断了的丝还是会连着,不能像叶子般潇洒,摆脱了树就随风飘走...
    很想告诉你的事,时间走了还是带不走,距离远了思念越深,忘记你不容易...如果能有选择,我不会想忘记你...


    My mind today still think of him..
    When all my friends was talking abt their own bf's wearing, my mind will automatically think of him..i jz pretent i'm ok with it..
    When my friends was singing, they are singing love song..suddenly my tears cum out then all of my friends quick change the song..
    I am so sorry..i really try my best to control myself..make my mind nt to think him bt fail..


    Today Xiao Juan suddenly told me : 'cindy dun be sad..actually when you are sad..not only you will sad but all of us' ..thx Juan Jie, i noe it and i can feel it..that's why today i try not to drop any tears and try to chat with all of you..


    When Literasi Bahasa, seeing Chai Chai, Pei, Mei, Liu, Ching and Hea them was enjoy playing with the topeng which we had do..they ask me to join..
    If for before, i am sure i will join them play together but today i totally no that mood to do so..
    but thx to all of you..i did enjoy urs 'show'..make me laugh make me happy..


    Here would like to say..sorry to everyone..cindy always make all of you sad or maybe dissapointed..but cindy really did her best ler..give me some time..thx for being my side support me always..


    Really miss him so so much =.=

    Saturday, September 12, 2009

    no feeling??!!

    duno hw to describe my feeling now..
    happy? nope
    sad? nope
    then??..duno aso..no feeling at all


    finally
    delete all those pic together with him (100++ kpg)
    delete all msg and all pic inside my hp in my purse
    delete him frm my mind? nope..cant yet !!
    left the letter he wrote to me i nt yet throw away..


    suddenly so miss him
    wish to get his sms
    wish to call him 'bie' again
    gt the thinking of want to contact him and bck to with him


    but..
    heard that he ytday aft said out break dis words thn go UUM enjoy ler..
    so rethk again..
    wat for me alone sad here no eat bt he over there enjoy?
    wat for me alone missing him here bt he din at all?
    is dat he really no feeling toward me ler?
    is dat worth for me to ask him bck?
    is dat he nt really put on feel on dis relationship? or all is jz me myself put too much on it?
    really hard to pass my day..
    and i know he dah put me down ler..
    if he never cum to me..walk into my heart or say dat words..everythg is better is prefect..
    really wish could settle our gab bt not choose to 'break'..


    i cant thk bck and look bck ler..i know this
    but humman gt feeling one..
    i cant lk him aft break still so enjoy maybe he trying to 4gt me too {nobody noe}
    duno hw many time i cry..
    hw many time i call ppl and chat..
    hw many time i sit infront laptop without doing anythg..
    hw many time wait to see he sign in..
    i am so suffer !! hurt de feeling really not nice !!
    help..cindy need help !!


    pretent i am strong when chat with him..
    pretent i can live without him..
    pretent let my fren see i am ok ler..
    bt it all is a lies..
    tired to be pretent..


    hw can he so cruel choose to break and din stand on my side..
    he willing to let go a grl who so so love him..
    i did i tolerate with him so long ler..
    should be together hold our hand more tight pass through dis period wat..
    i believe if we can pass through this thn everythg will going well..
    izzit??

    释放的感觉

    终于有种释放的感觉... 谢谢你做出酱的决定

    surprise still can chat with him on skype jz nw..
    still can accept him as a fren bck at facebook..
    be fren really more topic n thg to chat if compare with couple..


    tears cum out when chat with him but jz awhile..
    i noe myself have to face the reality..
    although is cruel to me..bt i believe myself can do it !!


    i like what my family say : from where u fall down learn for there to stand up
    nice huh? yeah..


    study cum first..
    here would lk to thx one more fren..which is 'him'
    although we nt really noe each other..
    bt thx for always by my side ask me nt to find replacement..
    acc when i nid..listen to me almost half day..


    aso..my roomate-pei
    thx so much for listen my pain n let me cry out..
    sry for disturb u doing assignment..


    my hsmate :
    thx for let me noe my life still gt all of u..
    without relationship still gt frenship..
    yeah..hw luckily i am..



    我想我可以重新习惯,依靠自己

    Friday, September 11, 2009

    我失恋了!!

    可惜不是你,陪我到最后
    感谢的是你,牵过我的手...

    duno start frm when..
    jz finish cry..tears aso no more ler..
    tot wat i had did wat i had pay out will get a gd ending bt originaly nt..

    thx to him bring me those happiness memory..
    thx to him let me so serious in love..
    let me noe love someone is so sweet..

    he??!!
    a first guy..
    i so serious in love..
    i so care so concern abt him..
    wish to get his news all the time..
    willing to do lot thg for him to c his smile..
    i will nt 4gt those day we together have fun..talking foto..
    walk along the beach..having pizza hut,mcD..
    1st time met at pasar air itam..
    having breakfast together..
    hold hand..ur letter which make me touch..

    although dis is nt wat i wan bt since he say so already i cant even ask him to bck together coz i know he suffer too..
    maybe i am his burden..
    maybe i am nt enaugh gd for him..
    maybe i cant give wat he wan..
    maybe i cant give him lot freedom..
    maybe..maybe..

    anyway..i know it's hurt for me..so so hurt
    the feeling i never face b4..
    bt in dis relationship nobody wrong..

    i really wish YOU could find ur future wife n have a happy ending with her =)
    i wish myself could 4gt YOU one day..although i noe it take time..
    i duno i can be strong grl o nt bt i will try not to let mummy daddy worry..

    finally..

    YOU : i love you..really did..love you more thn myself..sry for bring lot burden to u, nt so understand u..so nw i jz can love you in my heart =)
    ME : gambate..dun try to thk bck..+ u

    Sunday, September 6, 2009

    stupid cindy !!

    suddenly feel so down..
    choose to write here to prevent useless argue with smone again..feel tired only

    cindy ah cindy..
    how cum u will becum lk dis??
    hw cum u will get effect by smone??

    i really wish myself can like others..
    they really no argue no problem at all..bt me..i thk almost everyday will quarral..
    i really try my best to do everything even control my mood and change myself to suit smone..
    bt still fail..
    why?? someone can tell me why??

    sad over cum me now..
    tears almost wan out bt luckily din at last..
    really stupid cindy !!
    super duper stupid cindy here =.=

    still wan continue my road or let go??
    i am not wish to let go..
    as my fren i thk all of u could see n feel hw gd i treat smone..
    i even spend some time to thk and try to settle the problem..

    'take it easy' ..i like dis sentenses..bt hard to do so..haiz
    together with the one you like also so hard..help me !!

    mummy when you see dis post..dun worry about me ya..
    i will be better aft wake up =)
    smore aft write out all those unhappy thg..feel better alot already =)

    stupid cindy..
    gambate..hate to be stupid like dis

    Saturday, August 29, 2009

    吃好料!



    与朋友在Queensbay Mall 吃午餐!没想到从Air Itam 驱车去到酱远mum mum =.= 而且还下着雨勒!不过没关系,因为我有机会坐'大辆车'久一点嘛 =p 别问我是什么车,我只知道是新车...
      灯,灯,灯,灯…这位就是我`司机' =p

    在Queensbay Mall 里遇到了另一个未来的人类灵魂工程师…但我们只是打了个招呼就擦肩而过了…对不起噢,我想我因该介绍你们认识认识的嘛…毕竟一个是刚从UK回来,一个则要去UK留学…无论如何,祝福你…希望三年后从UK回来的你会有更好的前程,别忘了你的承诺噢!

    讲回我和我的'司机'吧…可怜的他一一拒绝了当其他人的'司机'因为我们还没吃啊!其实我们在Queensbay Mall 里兜了很久最终才由他决定去哪里吃叻…吃完后就走走咯,我买了一对耳环咯而他呢空手回家咯(因为他知道赚钱难所以不随便花钱)

    我这位朋友,好像是在佛学院认识他的,我们的友谊也是从那个时候开始萌芽!那时候的我读着师范学院第一学期…过后他就飞去UK读书了,而我们时常会在skype聊天,他也会开webcam让我看看他的宿舍…时间过得真快,你就要去Seremban做工咯…

    祝福你,我的朋友…
    祝你:工作顺利,好好照顾自己哦!(不懂你会有机会看到这博克吗?)
       

    Friday, August 28, 2009

    心情札记有感而发之三

    现在外面下着一场'长眠雨' ,该死的想念这东西又偷偷地冒出来啦!想必现在的你是在上课吧…(如果给妈咪看到我酱早起床on9写博客肯定会被臭骂一顿)人家就是忍不住嘛,突然间有好多话要讲嘛!


    我…每一天都想你
    我…每一天学习如何去坚强面对逆境


    有点感慨为何人们都是酱的?身边的东西都不懂去珍惜…
    难道你们都不懂世上最珍贵的东西莫过于失去与拥有吗?!
    难道一段易得回来的感情就不珍贵了吗?
    不要等到失去了才懂得去珍惜和拥有…
    不要等到后悔了才发现往事只能回味…


    大男人主义的你,对于你,我已尽量去配合了…
    看到你伤心难过,我都会想去哄你开心…
    当你想读书,我都不会去打扰你虽然我好多话想对你说…
    有些朋友要我找一个比较适合自己的鞋子,穿在脚上既不辛苦也不感到不适…
    有些朋友则要我给自己的鞋子一些时间,毕竟我的鞋子之前的主人都是很疼它的,我的鞋子就是酱被宠出来的咯…


    哎呀!!
    我的鞋子啊!你几时才能让我穿得比较舒服呢?
    我的鞋子啊!你几时才能让我觉得有安全感呢?


    好了啦,不写了…待会儿要与朋友去lunch咯…yummy ^^

    Wednesday, August 26, 2009

    心情札记有感而发之二

    好多的…繁重课业
    不懂得…从何下手
    突然间…没有灵感
    所以就…随便拍拍
    可怜啊…我的妈咪
    被逼地…帮我'抓机'
    拍完后…重拾心情
    继续地…完成课业
    陈慧婷…要加油噢 ^^




    Monday, August 24, 2009

    登水坝记

    上个星期五突然接到朋友的来电,他邀我昨天(八月二十三日)去参与由槟城林氏忠孝堂青年团举办的登水坝比赛。想想最近是雨季所以就告诉他看情形啦!

    前晚想了很久就决定去了,因为本小姐很久没做运动了嘛,再加上如果不想爬,可以在那边做工作人员还蛮不错的!就这样昨天早上6点半朋友来接我了,还好他是驾车来的因为还下着细雨。没想到原来有100位参加者勒,害到我有点担心要不要参与,爱面子的我二话不说就‘啦拉声’报名参与(因为他自动说帮我付报名费=p )有点懒惰的我不想换上登水坝的衣服,还好我那位朋友是工委,所以我有特别优待,穿着我的衣服登水坝咯...

    比赛前他竟然告诉我说如果半小时还未见到我就驾车来载我上去了(小看我)!向他吐了舌头我就头也不回的爬上水坝了。还真得很喘勒,好像ah ma酱的我几乎全程都用走=p 不懂是我走得快还是幸运,最后一个安慰奖也给我拿走吖


    <我的战利品>

    过后,有幸运抽奖仪式,不幸的我没有得.哈哈
     
    就这样我们一起去吃午餐,然后就说拜拜咯!我的星期天早上就这样过了...谢谢那位朋友噢

    心情札记有感而发之一


    很多人都说中学时期谈恋爱是不会长久的,有些朋友则告诉我大学时期谈恋爱也是不会长久的,因为他们说这段恋爱就好比是puppy love =.=


    好男人不易找,很幸运的在茫茫网海中我遇见了你,我们从朋友也迅速的伸变成了情人,虽然你没有周杰伦的帅气,徐志摩的文笔,魔术师的搞笑风趣,但是你有的优点是其他人所没有的呀!那当然你也有你的缺点啦…


    不懂为什么本小姐我会爱上一个拥有大男人主义的你,你有你的原则,你要的东西一定会要得到。以前的我很ANTI 大男人主义的男人但没想到上天竟然开个玩笑让我遇见了你,也让我与你坠入爱河…


    以前不管是伴侣还是异性朋友都会把我像小公主一般疼我,哄哄我,去哪里只要一通电话就会出现在我眼前,煮东西给我吃,要风得风要雨得雨,永远永远把我放在第一位…但自从和你在一起后,我才发现你和他们100%不一样勒,我再也不能像以前那样…=(


    1. 心情不好就发大小姐的脾气(因为你比我还要凶=p )
    2. 课业方面一遇到挫折就找'救兵'帮忙(因为你一定不会帮我的,你总是要求我自己'搞定')
    3. 想要去哪儿就打电找'司机'(因为你不喜欢我把你当司机嘛)
    4. 向你撒撒娇,要求你向我报告你做了什么,去了哪里,和谁等等…(因为你向往自由)
    5. 要求你打电话让我听听你的声音(因为你是个不喜欢讲电话的人)
    6. 要求你改这个做那个(因为都说了嘛你是大男人)
    7. 把小小的我放在你心中的第一位(爱情永远不可能在你心中胜任一切,学业往往来得更重要)
    8. 要求你多点陪陪我(因为你温习书本后时间一到就要睡了)
    9. 吵架后马上哄回我(因为你总是会让我冷静后再淡,如果是我的错,我必须自动say sorry )
    10. 要求你介绍你的朋友让我认识,让我知道你交的朋友是哪类型的(因为你总会说父母都不管你了,更何况我只是你的女友)


    还有好多好多咯…大男人主义的你是否知道我已改变了很多很多?亦付出了许多?(人家说付出从不要求回报,所以就不在这里列出来咯)和你在一起好辛苦噢,可说是酸甜苦辣都尝尽了…也许你也一样把!


    我们曾经很不成熟像玩mamasak,意见不和就说‘分’,又曾经从无数次争吵中成长了一点点,有更爱一点点吗?虽然和你在一起的日子不长,但本小姐好怀念咱们在海边的点点滴滴,不懂何时还有机会再次去那呢?

    回想起昨天当我问你载了谁进去上课,问了好几次你都不愿回答,甚至还delete了我的短信(眼泪已快要飚出来了)…终于等到你的答案了,原来载了都是女生(不争气的眼泪就不由自主地飚出来了)。为什么?是我想太多?还是我个人把感情这东西放得太重?


    我希望希望,衷心希望大男人主义的你会有一天把大男人主义这东西慢慢放下,或许可以让一步达到一些我想要的东西…

    如果能够的话,当然希望我们能把手牵得更加牢,然后一起走到那个叫做永远的终点站…