无题

原来他爱上了另一个她，我想是时候让我忘了他..

how to say about dis?
starting i though everythg still can solve..
and now i am sure cant anymore..


anyway..
i promise myself..today last day for me..
to view his profile..
to thk of him..
to concern about him..


i decided to let all go..
let him as a memory..


study..
study is more important..
love is juz a thg that make our life wonderful abit..
without it..i still can make my life wonderful..


are you going to stay with the one you love or going bck to the one who love you..
my ans is..
THE ONE WHO LOVE ME ...


stop here la..
my blogs will not appear 'him' anymore..

h@Ppy b'd@Y Papa !!

happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to papa..
happy birthday happy birthday..


papa..
sry for cant celebrate with u at pg..
but ur daughter really wan to thx you..
thx for always by her side selama 20 years..
she duno hw to thk..always make ppl worry..
bt dun worry..
she wun do so ler..
she will be a daughter that will make u proud of her one day !!


papa..
u really best papa for me..
although u so strick..so garang
smtime i will scare of u..
but wanna say hor..
u really best la..kekex


happy birthday again..
best reward : best papa in dis world - cindy's papa
haha..
love you..muackx

finally ...

smone send a mail to me..
the mail let me wake up at last..


如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人....
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的....
爱一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她....


lulala..

GO GO CINDY...
CINDY GO GO...
STAND UP AND TRY TO FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT...


4 more days..penang i am coming..
papa mama i am cuming oo..
i need home ^^

argh!!!

i already try not to open facebook ler..
bt how cum my mind still full with him?
i miss his smile..his voice..his sms n everythg..
what should i do when missing him?
tell him or self control?
help me please !!


everyday waiting the familiar no appear on my phone..
jz like ytday before i sleep, i rcv his msg but thn is early he sms me de jz i din notice it..
surprise..
however the msg no appear 'dear' dis words anymore..
sadness over cum me..
i know everythg gone already..
3 days ler..
if he want to be with me he sure will say out but thn NO..
T.T ~


am i a stupid grl??
i should not put 100% in love..
what else can do??
i am jz like a stupid grl missing him but cant do anythg..
suffer alots..


huhu ~

以为...

以为时间可以冲淡一切，但毕竟心不是机械化，不能像电脑般果断，按了扭就能冲洗一切...
以为距离可以拉开思念，但毕竟断了的丝还是会连着，不能像叶子般潇洒，摆脱了树就随风飘走...
很想告诉你的事，时间走了还是带不走，距离远了思念越深，忘记你不容易...如果能有选择，我不会想忘记你...


My mind today still think of him..
When all my friends was talking abt their own bf's wearing, my mind will automatically think of him..i jz pretent i'm ok with it..
When my friends was singing, they are singing love song..suddenly my tears cum out then all of my friends quick change the song..
I am so sorry..i really try my best to control myself..make my mind nt to think him bt fail..


Today Xiao Juan suddenly told me : 'cindy dun be sad..actually when you are sad..not only you will sad but all of us' ..thx Juan Jie, i noe it and i can feel it..that's why today i try not to drop any tears and try to chat with all of you..


When Literasi Bahasa, seeing Chai Chai, Pei, Mei, Liu, Ching and Hea them was enjoy playing with the topeng which we had do..they ask me to join..
If for before, i am sure i will join them play together but today i totally no that mood to do so..
but thx to all of you..i did enjoy urs 'show'..make me laugh make me happy..


Here would like to say..sorry to everyone..cindy always make all of you sad or maybe dissapointed..but cindy really did her best ler..give me some time..thx for being my side support me always..


Really miss him so so much =.=

no feeling??!!

duno hw to describe my feeling now..
happy? nope
sad? nope
then??..duno aso..no feeling at all


finally
delete all those pic together with him (100++ kpg)
delete all msg and all pic inside my hp in my purse
delete him frm my mind? nope..cant yet !!
left the letter he wrote to me i nt yet throw away..


suddenly so miss him
wish to get his sms
wish to call him 'bie' again
gt the thinking of want to contact him and bck to with him


but..
heard that he ytday aft said out break dis words thn go UUM enjoy ler..
so rethk again..
wat for me alone sad here no eat bt he over there enjoy?
wat for me alone missing him here bt he din at all?
is dat he really no feeling toward me ler?
is dat worth for me to ask him bck?
is dat he nt really put on feel on dis relationship? or all is jz me myself put too much on it?
really hard to pass my day..
and i know he dah put me down ler..
if he never cum to me..walk into my heart or say dat words..everythg is better is prefect..
really wish could settle our gab bt not choose to 'break'..


i cant thk bck and look bck ler..i know this
but humman gt feeling one..
i cant lk him aft break still so enjoy maybe he trying to 4gt me too {nobody noe}
duno hw many time i cry..
hw many time i call ppl and chat..
hw many time i sit infront laptop without doing anythg..
hw many time wait to see he sign in..
i am so suffer !! hurt de feeling really not nice !!
help..cindy need help !!


pretent i am strong when chat with him..
pretent i can live without him..
pretent let my fren see i am ok ler..
bt it all is a lies..
tired to be pretent..


hw can he so cruel choose to break and din stand on my side..
he willing to let go a grl who so so love him..
i did i tolerate with him so long ler..
should be together hold our hand more tight pass through dis period wat..
i believe if we can pass through this thn everythg will going well..
izzit??

释放的感觉

终于有种释放的感觉... 谢谢你做出酱的决定

surprise still can chat with him on skype jz nw..
still can accept him as a fren bck at facebook..
be fren really more topic n thg to chat if compare with couple..


tears cum out when chat with him but jz awhile..
i noe myself have to face the reality..
although is cruel to me..bt i believe myself can do it !!


i like what my family say : from where u fall down learn for there to stand up
nice huh? yeah..


study cum first..
here would lk to thx one more fren..which is 'him'
although we nt really noe each other..
bt thx for always by my side ask me nt to find replacement..
acc when i nid..listen to me almost half day..


aso..my roomate-pei
thx so much for listen my pain n let me cry out..
sry for disturb u doing assignment..


my hsmate :
thx for let me noe my life still gt all of u..
without relationship still gt frenship..
yeah..hw luckily i am..



我想我可以重新习惯，依靠自己

我失恋了！！

可惜不是你，陪我到最后
感谢的是你，牵过我的手...

duno start frm when..
jz finish cry..tears aso no more ler..
tot wat i had did wat i had pay out will get a gd ending bt originaly nt..

thx to him bring me those happiness memory..
thx to him let me so serious in love..
let me noe love someone is so sweet..

he??!!
a first guy..
i so serious in love..
i so care so concern abt him..
wish to get his news all the time..
willing to do lot thg for him to c his smile..
i will nt 4gt those day we together have fun..talking foto..
walk along the beach..having pizza hut,mcD..
1st time met at pasar air itam..
having breakfast together..
hold hand..ur letter which make me touch..

although dis is nt wat i wan bt since he say so already i cant even ask him to bck together coz i know he suffer too..
maybe i am his burden..
maybe i am nt enaugh gd for him..
maybe i cant give wat he wan..
maybe i cant give him lot freedom..
maybe..maybe..

anyway..i know it's hurt for me..so so hurt
the feeling i never face b4..
bt in dis relationship nobody wrong..

i really wish YOU could find ur future wife n have a happy ending with her =)
i wish myself could 4gt YOU one day..although i noe it take time..
i duno i can be strong grl o nt bt i will try not to let mummy daddy worry..

finally..

YOU : i love you..really did..love you more thn myself..sry for bring lot burden to u, nt so understand u..so nw i jz can love you in my heart =)
ME : gambate..dun try to thk bck..+ u

stupid cindy !!

suddenly feel so down..
choose to write here to prevent useless argue with smone again..feel tired only

cindy ah cindy..
how cum u will becum lk dis??
hw cum u will get effect by smone??

i really wish myself can like others..
they really no argue no problem at all..bt me..i thk almost everyday will quarral..
i really try my best to do everything even control my mood and change myself to suit smone..
bt still fail..
why?? someone can tell me why??

sad over cum me now..
tears almost wan out bt luckily din at last..
really stupid cindy !!
super duper stupid cindy here =.=

still wan continue my road or let go??
i am not wish to let go..
as my fren i thk all of u could see n feel hw gd i treat smone..
i even spend some time to thk and try to settle the problem..

'take it easy' ..i like dis sentenses..bt hard to do so..haiz
together with the one you like also so hard..help me !!

mummy when you see dis post..dun worry about me ya..
i will be better aft wake up =)
smore aft write out all those unhappy thg..feel better alot already =)

stupid cindy..
gambate..hate to be stupid like dis